I am going to apologize for the philosophical post you are about to read. (chuckles)
I tend to say I 'need' something, but I guess I really just 'want' it.
There are definitely things we need, but those aren't the things I find myself 'needing'. We need food but we never really need the food we crave; pizza, chocolate, coffee, etc. We need relationships to help us feel less lonely, but do we need certain people to be those friends or will anyone do? I can think of a few people that I definitely feel like I need in my life. They make my life brighter, every day. Do we need the latest phone, car or toy? Or is it just fun to have? I need to clean my house, but do I really? It isn't dirty per say, just... cluttered. A clean house would make me feel less stress, and more comfortable in my own home. So maybe I do need to clean my home. But I don't need that fancy tv.
My boys asked me to make them quilts going on years ago... one is almost complete. The other, well, let's just say I have my work cut out on that one. Then there is the anniversary quilt. All it needs (there is that word again) is some more quilting and a binding. The anniversary was in Aug, and the party where I presented the top to the couple (my parents) was in June. I think it is time to get it finished. Sigh
There are so many things I want to do and so many that I need to do. How do I even begin? I am so overwhelmed it is crazy! So much so that I sit here at 12:30 at night and know that I should be sleeping because I have to get up in the morning and deal with my children, but instead my brain won't stop. It just keeps running thousands of thoughts 'round and 'round. I need sleep. I want sleep. But I can't.
What do you want? What do you need?
I want quilting time, I want a clean beautiful home, I want to see my friends more, I want....
I need air, water and food. Shelter. Wait... I have those things. I need to be thankful for them.
I want to finish my parents' and my boys' quilts so that I can start making more Angel Quilts. We need a cure for CF!! That is a definite need. But I have other things that I have made given priority to. When they are done, then I can quilt, then I can have 'me' time. Till then, I will continue to feel as though I need to do a better job at managing my time so I can do all I want to do and be the person I want to be. And that is... Happy.
In the mean time, I must not complain. I must not 'need' so much. A very good friend of mine has taught me that. Live for today, not in the past. We cant change what has happened, we can only live for today and wait to see what tomorrow has in store for us.
(ok, maybe philosophical wasn't the best word)
These kids make me smile. Every. Single. Day.